Honestly the male species disappoints me…In the past year, I have received more male attention than my past self could ever have imagined. Yet the attention I receive is mostly sexual and out of all the guys who hit on me at work or school or anywhere else, not one of them has asked me on a date or to get to know me. I do consider myself a sexual person with various talents but it would be much more comforting and fun and all around better to have sexual encounters with you know, someone who actually cares about me as a person. Sex is about two bodies temporarily becoming one and the mind is part of the body. Having a mental connection with a person could only make sex that much more intense and fantastic…but I’m seriously doubting I will find that connection and it makes me sad.
Like while you’re fighting your own battles, (School, homework, relationships, depression, etc.) there are a million bigger battles being fought; and even if you take steps and fight off your own battles, it won’t matter because the bigger battles will have taken over the world? In that perspective, what is the point to life if you can never fight the biggest battles that make all personal battles seem small and insignificant? Thinking too much leads me to feeling hopeless…just a thought.